Monday, December 10, 2012

I Knew What I Want

Everyone comes to a point where they wonder what their purpose is. I did, for 22 years, I searched for that purpose but no matter what I do everything seems chaotic, I can’t sort it all out.


I’ve always loved reading Bo Sanchez books. I’m not aware that he has a blog until my friend posted one in facebook and ever since I have been reading one to three blogs per day.

My story

Since I’m not yet qualified to take the board exams this December, I decided to apply in Transcom as a human resource assistant. I figured that if I was able to get this job, I would be able to help my family and pay my review classes next year. I even prayed for it.
After 2 weeks, I finally got the job offer. I learned so much during my first week.  I was able to conduct phone interviews, background checks and encode datas. I had so much fun but unfortunately I got sick at the end of the week and was hospitalized.
My family told me to resign because they’re scared that I would be on my death bed soon. (Funny right?) Instead of arguing, I sent a message to my boss. I told her about what my family and I talked about and that I would be resigning on Monday.

Monday

I went to the office with cold feet. My boss and I arrived at the same time. She was in a hurry that I had to run after her. When we reached our department, she told me that she has a 4pm meeting and if I want I could make the resignation letter, leave it at her desk and go home (if ever I’m in a hurry).  So I did what she told me to do except the last two instructions, I waited for her in my cubicle. While waiting, I was able to talk to some of my officemates. I’m not going to mention what we talked about but it made me think about not leaving.

After my boss’ meeting, I approached her and asked if we could talk. So we did. Our conversation was not a boss/employee type but a sister/friend one. I loved that talk! It confused me in a way but it made me realize that I was happy with my job.

We have a CLP that time (to those who doesn’t know what CLP is, it is an abbreviation for Christian Life Program) so after we talked, I left and went straight to Vermont Park chapel. I can’t stop thinking about that “talk” me and my boss had so I prayed, “Lord I’m confused. Please let me know if you want me to keep my job or resign. Let your will be done.”

The next day, I have this confident feeling that I should resign but instead, I texted my boss if I could have another day to think about it and she said no, I had enough time. I replied with my resignation message, closed my eyes and pressed send. She didn’t reply.

God’s Message

A few days after my resignation blues, I asked God about what my purpose is and if I did the right thing. And he answered me.




http://bosanchez.ph/do-you-know-what-you-really-want/

“The easiest way for you to know God’s purpose is to look for the intersection between your passion and your potential.” In other words, find alignment.

Like Bo Sanchez, I failed in pursuing an HRA career because I went out of my two cicles of passion and potential.

Fulfilling your purpose may or may not to earn you money. And that’s okay. Life is not about earning money.

On his 5 steps on how to expand your territories blog (http://bosanchez.ph/5-steps-on-how-to-expand-your-territories/), I got myself asking, “What is my core gift?”. He provided two simple questions on how to answer this: 1. What do you enjoy doing 2. What are you good at

I answered those 2 questions unconsciously.

That’s when it hit me!

“Altruistic caring & Service”, that’s what I’m good at! And I don’t just enjoy it, it’s what I love doing!

Before I was blaming my mom for forcing me to take up Nursing (I really want to pursue Psychology) but now I know that God has placed me in my profession, maybe not to become a hospital staff  but it’s an edge. I knew he made me for something bigger!

To be honest with you, ever since I was a kid, it breaks my heart to see poor children (this started my dream to build my own orphanage) and their families on the streets begging for money. I wanted to do something, I wanted to help everyone but I can't. 

Now, I'm a step towards mending the pieces of my heart. I am serving poor children worldwide and waiting to serve cancer patient kids (fingers crossed). If lucky enough, I want to be deployed anywhere in the world!

How about you? Do you know what you really want? :)

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